Monday, April 2, 2012

Behind the Curtain

Sinus pain, itchy throat and eyes, plugged ears, pre-menstrual funk, and fatigue - not a good weekend.  I really didn't feel like writing today.  A small voice inside called out though, urging me to be real.  One of the reasons I started writing was to be more honest and uncover some of the parenting and general life stuff that we all gloss over as we greet each other with, "I'm fine.  How are you?"

funk-o-mart (Photo credit: Digital Sextant)
I'm not fine today.  I don't have to be.  No one is fine all the time.  If they are, then they are lying or on serious medication.  Every once in awhile we need to show each other what's behind the curtain.  We need to share what lies deeper, beyond the surface.  My struggle sometimes is that I feel giving voice to my funk will make it grow.  If I tell you  how much my foot hurts, will that make it feel any better... no.  I go between feeling disingenuous or feeling like a Debbie downer.  Here's what I'm coming to this week - the more real I am with people, the more my friends and family can call me out on my $%#&.  If I only talk to people when life is good and manageable then I don't really have a source for being held accountable or receiving genuine concern.  And in terms of others, if I'm not real, than I just perpetuate the fallacy that being a good person or striving for good parenting means you're always good.  We all know that's not true. 

I feel crappy.  So, how are you?

p.s. Zemanta is the program I use to find legit photos for the blog.  It picks up on key words in the blog and makes suggestions for appropriate images.  The words, "pre-menstrual funk" inspired the pic above.  Smile.
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  1. I'm sorry you're not feeling well - but another important reason to tell people how you really feel is so you can get help when you need it or at the very least so people don't expect your 110%. I hope all of your boys chip in where they can and that you feel better soon. I'm also in a bit of a funk now but hoping getting back to my old routine will get me feeling better.

  2. You're absolutely right. Re-entry after a super special trip was a little hard too. Routines really can help.

  3. Hope you're feeling better soon, Lisa. I have always found you to be authentic, positive and inspiring - even when you are honest about the fact that everything isn't always rosy. Hope you un-funk soon :-)

  4. Thanks.The unfunkification has begun :).

  5. Maybe this will help the process: